The Past

We have been together for a year and eight months, soon to be nine. I could describe our relationship as, I suppose, a good one. We started out differently. We would constantly argue and disagree in the beginning, but it really turned out well. We have a connection that is stronger than it had ever been. It's kind of funny how it was so rocky but turned out so strong. Doesn't it normally go the other way around?

As we were having a good conversation, the past came up. The truth is, during our talking period, he was still seeing his ex-girlfriend. Of course to him it was not anything wrong because we weren't "official." But the TRUTH is, IT IS NOT RIGHT! There are certain things you don't do to people:

1.) YOU DON'T GO TO YOUR EX-GIRLFRIEND'S HOUSE THEN TO "THE GIRL YOU'RE TALKING TO" HOUSE!
It is just not right! Now, knowing that he actually did that to me hurts me so much. I don't give a damn that we weren't together and I don't give a damn that it was in the past. How can you really do that to somebody?!?

Are my morals that different? The moment I knew I wanted to be with him, I cut everybody off. I made him my priority and the only guy who got my undivided attention. I can remember like yesterday waiting for the phone to ring and to see him name on the caller ID. I don't think I could have the heart to "play" someone.

I really do love this boy to death. He has helped me in so many ways. But I also know the things I stood up for got pushed aside for him. It bothers me so much. There are things I said I would never put up with and now I put up with. And it's not that I want to put up with it, but it's that I put up with it for him. Because I have let so many things slide, if I try and stand my ground, it turns into a bigger argument. . .